Divorce’s Loving Betrayal

Sometimes circumstances bring a very bitter taste of devastation. I want to share one of those experiences with you, an experience that literally felt like a punch in the gut. It was one of those rare moments when emotional pain turned into physical pain. Even now, I’m shocked at how I reacted.

A long time ago I had two friends that were perfect lovers. They oozed love for each other. They had beautiful children. Every communication between them was loaded with admiration and enjoyment. Life was wonderful.

Then, abruptly, life changed.

Things got in the way. Ideas and feelings morphed and another beautiful marriage and family was severed. It was crushing for everyone involved. Heck, I was crushed, and I didn’t have to deal with any of the consequences.

The husband moved on and found another suitor and would enjoy time with her while in partial custody of the children. One day I saw all of them together. I saw one of these beautiful angel girls lying on the chest of this woman. She was being loved and comforted, but in my heart it felt like a betrayal. I can’t explain the emotion that I felt, but this wasn’t her mother, this was some other woman who had taken here place. It felt wrong to me. It was one of the most conflicting emotions I’ve ever felt.

As my heart broke at having to witness this all-too-familiar scene, of blended families coping with the destruction of divorce, I felt a glimpse of what it must be like as a mother, to have your family broken apart and have another woman comfort your child. If I put myself in their shoes, the thought of my wife leaving me for another man, and him tenderly holding my child…

NO. I can’t even imagine it. And a mother’s love is so much deeper.

I realize that these are emotions many families are dealing with due to divorce and separation. I don’t know how they do it. In my mind I know I should be happy that this little girl is being loved, but my heart needs convincing.

To all those who are trying to make the best of a bad situation, thank you. Thank you for the children’s sake. To those of you who can make some changes and avoid an unhappy ending, please do it! To you divorced mothers and fathers who had no other way out, I’m sorry. Only a glimpse of the pain you suffer daily has caused me to shrink.




  • Katie says:

    Your reaction assumes that this mom was taking something away from the birth mother….when in fact she isn't. Having two mothers actually increases the love that a child is able to receive and have, not that that love is split in two….much like adding a child to your own family doesn't split the love of the parents between the children. Make sense? If it has to be, it has to be….but

    • Ben says:

      Katie, thanks for the comment. You are obviously in a much better place than I am. I'm glad you can feel the way you do, that's awesome. It's helpful to see people's perspectives, especially those who have gone through the experience. I could only describe what my heart was feeling as I witnessed the scene. I'm glad to know I'm not always right about things!

  • Amy says:

    Some things to consider…… anyone can put on a good show and not all women are natural, nurturing mothers. Yes, it's typically in our gender to feel that love so deeply we would do anything for our little ones, but more and more I hear of women deciding that's just not what they want and good men are left behind picking up the slack. I spend a lot of time with two young girls whose

    • Ben says:

      Amy, such a sweet comment. I definitely don't understand all the perplexities of the situation, that's why I'm glad people are commenting. I should be glad that any child can feel love when they need it.

  • Katheryn says:

    While I can imagine that it would be difficult knowing that someone else was taking care of and loving my child, that would be so much better than knowing that I had to send my child to spend time in a place where the opposite was true. Imagine the nightmare of not knowing if your small child is being loved or beaten, fed or drugged, watched or left alone. Hoping and praying the whole time,

    • Ben says:

      Katheryn, thanks for the comment. I agree with you 100%, there are times when divorce is the right decision. Anyone who has had a family member mistreated feels the same way too. If the only option was divorce, I would definitely prefer knowing my child is love as you mentioned. Still makes it really hard though.

  • I&#39;ve seen so much divorce it&#39;s become almost more than normal. My dad&#39;s been divorced three times. My mother just finalized her third last week. That was also the third for my ex-step-father. My brother went through his second this past spring. <br /><br />I wish I could help, but I don&#39;t think I know any different.

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